Friday, I went to the doctor's office to have six precancerous lesions frozen off my face. Sunday night, I "slept" at the ER with a high temperature and horrible pain from my stomach to my kidneys. I am 45 years old. Old enough, I suppose, to feel death watching me, and wonder if I have lived such a bad life that I deserve to die.

I have never killed anyone. I have never been so drunk I passed out, although I do enjoy a good party, especially if there is singing involved. I have been know to go skinny dipping, but seldom at parties, and never while singing and drinking. In short, I would be hard pressed to say I deserved to die. I know I am not anything special. I understand that one day I will die, as we all do, but still I feel ashamed when I am sick.

I do not believe God punishes us with illness, but I do believe we need forgiveness. I believe we need to forgive ourselves for not being better fortune tellers. It is not rational to expect a five year old to know that today's sunburn will turn into sun lesions in, oh, forty years or so. It is not fair to expect that routine medical care will protect someone from a nasty bout of the stomach flu. Things change. No one lives forever. We need to live and love and laugh and let go. Sometimes, the best we can do it to keep breathing, and one day, we all fail at that too, and somehow, that is okay.

Rodney Robbins

Rodney Robbins, A Paradox in Motion

Rodney Robbins is novelist with a quirky sense of humor and a quality expert with 15+ years experience in manufacturing and restaurant management.

Rodney Robbins also has a rare muscle disorder called Periodic Paralysis and enjoys the shooting sports. He grew up in a New Age family, writes fiction about modern day Witches and attended a wonderful Lutheran college. He has Celiac Disease (an autoimmune response to grains) and complex migraines that cause him to actually bite people’s heads clean off. Rodney also has a strong sense of compassion for everyone who suffers and is not comforted.

In short, Rodney Robbins is just the kind of person you would expect to draw zany cartoons, to write books for young adults, or to help people turn their restaurant into the kind of magical place that draws a crowd and sends them all home satisfied!

"I hope you enjoy the articles I’ve posted for you here at ezinearticles.com," says Rodney, "and I hope you remember to love much, laugh often and enjoy your life."